Home Cooked Thoughts

I would like you all to meet our newest addition to the family … Charles Randall, or as we like to call him … Charlie!

God was kind enough to bless us with another little boy, someone for Benjamin to play with, terrorize, and hopefully befriend for life.  Poor Charlie, at only 12 days old, has already endured finger poking, bassinet shaking, shared lunch attempts, screaming fits throughout naps, and the constant stealing of his first stuffed animal.  He has also been treated to numerous hugs and occasional petting.

I had my worries and doubts about bringing a second child into this world … all due to my insane ability to over-think everything.  I thought that surely Benjamin would be jealous, so jealous in fact that he would hate us for bringing home another child.  I was convinced I hadn’t had enough time alone with Benjamin in this world and how could he possibly adjust to not having 100% of our time.  And my biggest fear was that I could never love another child the way I love Benjamin.

What an idiot I am!!  All of these things have proven to be hugely inaccurate.  Not a split second went by after the doctor removed Charlie from me before I was instantly sobbing – overwhelmed with love (and relief that it was a boy!).  I think I smothered his face with so many kisses before they whisked him away to the nursery – he was sure to know who mommy was.  And Benjamin … well, Ben took his time coming around, but once he did … he’s been a loving big brother who has not only watched out for little brother but also reassured Charlie that with all that love will come some torture as well.

And ironically, with all this extra love I’ve been pouring out to my two little boys, I have found myself loving my husband more than ever before (even with the hormonal imbalances).

I know this next year is going to be a difficult one, but it’s amazing how strong we can be when we have no other choice!  I am so grateful to be the only girl in the house, and in full wonderment at the capacity of love we humans have!  God is good!